I’ve deleted the song “Blacklisted Me” from my Youtube account as some of you may have noticed, on my journey to become a better human I’ve learned to value things so much differently in a way that is fulfilling and happy. When I say that this is the happiest I’ve ever been I mean it, I never got anywhere by telling people to “fuck off” and putting on the “I dont give a fuck” persona. I don’t want to encourage anyone else to be that way either… because i realized it TRULY put me in a dark place and the WHOLE REASON i wanted to write music in the first place was to create an outlet and help people in their day to day lives not dig them into a deeper hole. I’m not going to encourage people to take comfort in something that I know from the bottom of my heart is wrong, even if it benefited me. I want to influence you guys to have better morals, not the ones i used to portray. Take it from someone that has experienced both sides, hating people and being so negative all the time is NOT the way to live.
Lexus Amanda Is beyond fake. Its ridiculous, honestly. How can you go from being addicted to your ‘anxiety meds’ and sleeping the fuck around with everyone, to being holy and all for god?
Newsflash, saying you believe in god wont save you. believing in something, is more then just words and saying it. Its…”
I’ll start by stating how completely ignorant this paragraph is, before you go on yet another ridiculous rant about how ignorant you think I am. For one, it’s completely wrong and negative to tell someone that they aren’t forgiven, or they aren’t trying to change their life. As an equal human being who are YOU to tell me that i can’t better myself? I’m pretty positive I’ve never met you, never spoken to you, so for you to call me out and tell me I’m not trying to become a greater person and tell me what I don’t believe in from the bottom of my heart is insane. If you’ve read anything in the Bible you’ll read that yeah, you can be forgiven no matter how far you fall, you can always go up, and i’m on my way. It’s sad that you don’t see that, I genuinely hope you get to because I’m the happiest I’ve ever been. You can’t take that from me.
I’ve recently found God again in my life. I can honestly say I haven’t felt this way since i was so young when i found the pleasure in the air, love, and life instead of alcohol and self glorification. I’ve been suffocating in such a dark place for the past few years of my life and I’ve finally taken the largest gulp of fresh air ever. There are going to be a lot of changes with what i represent as a human being. I feel lucky to have realized something some people never get to realize. I’ll be sharing more with you all soon.